54. Spiral of My Soul

It’s been a minute. Well, more like three months. And, as per usual, it’s been a time full of feelings and evolution.

Since I last wrote, I followed my heart and flew to London (while gratefully remaining COVID negative). I returned to San Francisco six weeks later and got to experience the beautiful transformation of grieving a broken heart. I got a new tattoo from the fantastic Emma Flores, who is truly a kindred spirit. I turned my little room into a bakery, dance studio, and music studio—fully living out my tiny house dreams. And I even joined the socially distanced dating scene, this time with my app settings open to “everyone” (more on that another time).

I feel more like myself than I ever have.

There’s more. This weekend, I returned to Instagram (@peilingleee) after a four year hiatus—which, if you’ve read 24. Selfie, you’ll know is a pretty big deal for me. And the timing was in total alignment. It was also my one year anniversary of working with Tarot and of weekly therapy.

You can see my first two posts back below. I was legitimately curled up on a ball of anxiety and overwhelm after sharing that mini novel on Saturday night.

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I don’t know what came over me that day, because I definitely didn’t wake up with a plan to post. All I know is that I pulled The Sun (having the courage to be seen) and The Star (surrendering to the healing process) in my morning Tarot spread, and the rest unfolded as it was clearly meant to. Since then, my heart has been filled with such gratitude for the support that people from my past have shown for my present self.

Though Instagram has changed a lot in the past four years, I seek to engage with the platform in a way that promotes creativity, healing, inspiration, and empowerment.

So I’ve started a new account, @spiralofmysoul, which is an idea that’s been brewing within me for a few months now. My hope is for that channel to be an evolving space of free creative expression, where I can continue expanding upon the journey I began with this blog months ago.

To feel safe being seen and heard.
To trust myself and my voice.
To fully embody and express my truest, most authentic self.

I’m glad to be back.